Hello again

Hey....Hi......Hows it going?


Well, I haven't been here in awhile. If my grammer is messed up its because I am use to my phone fixing it for me. Haha. Our kids are so screwed on grammer!!!!!

Anyway, my life has changed a ton. I moved almost two years ago. Turned 30. Carrin came to my 30th birthday party. I love you Carrin!!!!!!!!! I am no longer a stay at home mom. All my babies are in school so I have gone back to work. It was hard at first but I love working and being around adults. I am a CNA for the time at a hospital near my house but will be starting school to be a RN this summer. Love my job and love the nurses I work with so I know school will go great.

Just had our 9th anniversary. Love Benny more than ever and all 3 kids are awesome. They crack me up daily and I just sit in fear for what is coming. Little Man is 13, Toot is 7 and Smiley is 5. Fun fun ages. Hehe.

It is amazing what working at a hospital will do for you. I work on the cardiac unit and IMC and every time I start to feel sorry for myself for anything, these patients remind me how great my life is. I have worked on other units but I love the unit I work on mostly because these people are so happy to just be alive. They are all fighting for their lives and when I complain about my feet hurting or my back hurting it really makes me feel like a fool. It has really put some perspective in my life. And we just have the best patients ever!!! Even though I am just the aid, I really feel like I make a difference in these peoples lives. I have the best nurses ever that are doing everything to teach me everything and I cant wait until I am a nurse. I started on Halloween but was just told today that I will be training all the new aids coming in even though I am the newest aid there. The nurses all insisted that I train the new aids. That made me feel pretty good.

Do have a problem though. I am having a hard time figuring out this working Mom role. I was a stay at home Mom for 8 years!!! I am so tired after working 12 hour shifts that when I get home, I just want to go to bed! I have been slacking on the mom duties and that kills me. Benny is doing so good at helping but it still bothers me. I miss notes from school, sometimes their clothes are so wrinkled, no snack, and I just miss the hell out of them!!!!!!! I didn't realize what working moms go threw and I gotta say, Its fucking hard! The guilt is the hardest part and there is a lot of it.

No one may read this but I just needed to let some stuff out. This has always been a good place to do that so I came here to do it.
I plan on catching up, or at least reading the new stuff of the bloggers I use to read all the time so don't be surprised if you see me comment.

Love you all!!

Missing a great friend

It always sucks when you loose a blogger. I know I haven't posted anything in forever but I have kept in touch with some of the wonderful friends I made through this.

The blogging community lost a GREAT one this weekend. He will be missed by so many. Not only was he a great blogger but also became a great friend of mine.

I will miss you Sage!!!!!!!!!

LOTS OF LOVE FOR YA!!!!!

Only in America!

A lady wrote the best letter in the editorials in ages!!! It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV.

Her point:
Recently large demonstrations have taken place across the country protesting the fact that Arizona is addressing the issue of illegal immigration. Certain people are angry that the US might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely.

Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests. Let's say I break into your house.

Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave.

But I say, "No! I like it here. It's better than my house. I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-working and honest (except for when I broke into your house)."

According to the protesters:
You are Required to let me stay in your house
You are Required to feed me
You are Required to add me to your family's insurance plan
You are Required to educate my kids
You are Required to provide other benefits to me & to my family (my husband will do all of your yard work because he is also hard-working and honest, except for that breaking in part).

If you try to call the police or force me out, I will call my friends who will picket your house carrying signs that proclaim my RIGHT to be there. It's only fair, after all, because you have a nicer house than I do, and I'm just trying to better myself. I'm a hard-working and honest, person, except for well, you know, I did break into your house and what a deal it is for me!!! I live in your house, contributing only a fraction of the cost of my keep, and there is nothing you can do about it without being accused of cold, uncaring, selfish, prejudiced, and bigoted behavior.

Oh yeah, I also DEMAND that you learn MY LANGUAGE!!! So you can communicate with me.

Why can't people see how ridiculous This is? Only in America .

One more reason....

I love being a stay at home mom.
I can do whatever the hell I want to my hair!!!!

Stupid BITCH!!!!

I am sure most of you know how much I dislike my neighbor. Ya, the one that always would just walk up in my house. Well, we have moved but not all of our stuff is out. She owner financed the house for us (HUGE MISTAKE) and because of all the problems with her, we gave the house back. It was actually her idea and we agreed. We have until April 15th to get everything out. That includes all of our pets.

I was going to have to board the cats (2 inside cats that are totally declawed) so I shut off all the bedroom doors, gave them plenty of food and water, cleaned their litter box and left them there. Also left the dogs there (that are outside dogs) and the horses. My mom went by Monday and Tuesday to check on them and all was fine. She couldn't go Wednesday but that was ok because I was going today.

I showed up this morning and the first thing I saw was one of my cats, dead, right by the drive way (and I had Toot and Smiley with me). I told the kids to stay in the car and searched real quick outside for the other cat and didn't find her so I went inside. No cat BUT every door inside was open but the doors that go to outside were all shut. ALL of the bedroom doors were open. Called mom, she didn't open them so I KNOW the neighbor had gone over there. And put my cats outside. My cats wont go outside by themselves. She had to actually put them out there.

STUPID FUCKING BITCH!!!!!! There is a special place in hell reserved just for her!!!!


RIP Smokey and Fern

Dear Friends

Dear my fellow bloggers,

I've been a tad tight lipped and not answering emails but I want you to know that Benny and I are not splitting up. We are just moving. It was a quick decision and one we made to better our lives. It WILL all work out for the better, BUT it is very stressful and overwhelming to me trying to figure it all out. If you have read me for any amount of time you know I have horses, dogs, cats, family and KIDS. I have to think about ALL of them and what is best for each of them but also what is best for us.

So, thank you all for the luck, prayers and concerns. Means a lot to me and we need them! ;)

Ever so stressed, I mean, thankfully,

April



For more letters go to my girls page here!

Next 3 weeks

Lots of things going on around these parts and so I am gonna be one busy chick. For about the next 2 or 3 weeks, I wont be around. Not on the blogs at least. Will still be checking my email everyday but that is about all I will have time for. BIG changes are happening and happening QUICK! Just wish me luck and say a little prayer that everything goes good and that we make the right decisions on all that we have to make decisions on. Thanks

Black cats beware!

Superstitious? Ya, sometimes I am. Mainly with the black cat crossing my path. I have on many occasions turned around. This past week, I had a black cat cross my path twice and Benny's once. Benny laughed at me because he knows how I am. But then, shit started happening.

Sunday night, a black cat crossed and 30 seconds later I almost hit a deer in the road. It was just standing there staring at me. Benny was sitting in the passenger seat because he had thrown his back out so I didn't want to slam on the brakes (and hurt him worse). Didn't want to swerve because that's how folks die. BUT, didn't want to hit the damn deer. So, I just slowed down and hoped it ran the right way. It didn't. But it didn't run the wrong way either. Just stood there.

Then, Wednesday morning another black cat crossed. A few hours later I was jumping on the trampoline with my kids and broke my toe. That shit hurts! The bruise is a lot darker now and twice as big and I now walk funny.

THEN, yesterday we went to South Louisiana with Benny. A damn black cat crossed our path and of course he laughed. But ya, he wasn't laughing later on when we got lost and he drove 50 miles to only go 4. Or when he had to change a tire on the trailer, in the freezing rain, on a tiny ass hwy with no shoulder. Or when he had to drive in the snow.

I don't think he will be laughing at me anymore. Who am I kidding, he probably will. He's an ass like that sometimes. I do know I'm shooting the next black cat that tries that shit thought!

Who me?

What is a 'Mommy blogger'?

I haven't figured that out yet.

To me, it sounds like someone that blogs about their kids all the time. I don't. I'm not sure about my stats but I'm pretty sure I don't blog about my kids more than half the time. I'd have to go back and look. Or, you could tell me. Do I? I know I bitch about stuff. And I talk about our weekends. And about my life. But, do I talk about my kids a lot? And even if I don't talk about my kids a lot BUT I am a mom that blogs, does that make me a 'mommy blogger'? I don't think so. I like Sage's term, a vanilla blogger.

I cuss on my blog. I say fuck (even though I know it makes my mom cringe). I say pretty much whatever I want and my mom wouldn't want it any other way. She just wants me to be me because I started this blog for a reason. To be me and to find others that relate, no matter if it's a man or woman, to me. Or, even if they don't relate to me but we become friends. The world would suck if we were all alike.

You can't think you know me just because you read my blog. I have said that before. It pisses me off when someone puts me in a stereotype just because I am a mom that happens to have a blog. Carrin knows things about me that none of you know, including my family. Amanda knows things about me that none of you know, including my family. Sage knows things about me that you would be shocked to know, including my family. Hehe. But hey, I share what I want to share with who I want to share it with.

I have made some great friends. Actually, best friends that I will be friends with all my life. I know this. And I know they will always be my friend no matter what. So, if they day comes and I do something that shocks you, don't be surprised (like shaving my head for example). It may be to much info with words or a pic but hey, it's me. If ya don't like it, don't read it.

I have decided I want to put ALL of me out there. Not just the part I thought you would like. So, I am not going to be a 'mommy/vanilla blogger' any more.

I am going to be a April Hall blogger.

I have stopped commenting on a lot of the blogs I use to for 2 reasons. First is because of the blogs I read that DON'T have a pop up window for comments, it screws up my computer and Internet Explorer goes crazy!!!! Like bat shit crazy!! The second reason is I just don't have the time. My comment count (folks that comment on my shit) has gone way down because of that but that's ok. I am cool with that. Give and take. I get that.

Just know, things might be a little different around here. I might be a 'mommy blogger' one week and a R or X rated blogger the next. I will be just like I am in real life, ya never know what ya are gonna get!

Not getting pinched!

It's St Patty's day and you can be damn sure I will be drinking beer to celebrate. But, gotta wear some green too. Don't want to get pinched, too hard. So, I got to thinking about what I should wear that is green.

First thought was a green thong. Benny might like that.
But (pun intended) I don't have the ass for it.

So, how about a green bra?

Hmmm, I got tits but that bra doesn't look like it would quite fit me.

Soooooo, I found the PERFECT outfit for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Looks comfy and I wont get pinched! I'm a total pj kinda girl so this seems perfect. And, Benny could get the matching pair!!!! Sure he would love that! Hehe!

Truthfully, I am Irish and I do love St Patty's day so if I could pick something to wear that I don't already have (I have a ton of St Patty shirts), this is what I would pick to wear.

And I am sure my tits would look great in it!!!!

BTW, I have a clover tattoo so even if I am naked, you can't pinch me!