Missing a great friend

It always sucks when you loose a blogger. I know I haven't posted anything in forever but I have kept in touch with some of the wonderful friends I made through this.

The blogging community lost a GREAT one this weekend. He will be missed by so many. Not only was he a great blogger but also became a great friend of mine.

I will miss you Sage!!!!!!!!!

LOTS OF LOVE FOR YA!!!!!

Only in America!

A lady wrote the best letter in the editorials in ages!!! It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV.

Her point:
Recently large demonstrations have taken place across the country protesting the fact that Arizona is addressing the issue of illegal immigration. Certain people are angry that the US might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely.

Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests. Let's say I break into your house.

Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave.

But I say, "No! I like it here. It's better than my house. I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-working and honest (except for when I broke into your house)."

According to the protesters:
You are Required to let me stay in your house
You are Required to feed me
You are Required to add me to your family's insurance plan
You are Required to educate my kids
You are Required to provide other benefits to me & to my family (my husband will do all of your yard work because he is also hard-working and honest, except for that breaking in part).

If you try to call the police or force me out, I will call my friends who will picket your house carrying signs that proclaim my RIGHT to be there. It's only fair, after all, because you have a nicer house than I do, and I'm just trying to better myself. I'm a hard-working and honest, person, except for well, you know, I did break into your house and what a deal it is for me!!! I live in your house, contributing only a fraction of the cost of my keep, and there is nothing you can do about it without being accused of cold, uncaring, selfish, prejudiced, and bigoted behavior.

Oh yeah, I also DEMAND that you learn MY LANGUAGE!!! So you can communicate with me.

Why can't people see how ridiculous This is? Only in America .

One more reason....

I love being a stay at home mom.
I can do whatever the hell I want to my hair!!!!

Stupid BITCH!!!!

I am sure most of you know how much I dislike my neighbor. Ya, the one that always would just walk up in my house. Well, we have moved but not all of our stuff is out. She owner financed the house for us (HUGE MISTAKE) and because of all the problems with her, we gave the house back. It was actually her idea and we agreed. We have until April 15th to get everything out. That includes all of our pets.

I was going to have to board the cats (2 inside cats that are totally declawed) so I shut off all the bedroom doors, gave them plenty of food and water, cleaned their litter box and left them there. Also left the dogs there (that are outside dogs) and the horses. My mom went by Monday and Tuesday to check on them and all was fine. She couldn't go Wednesday but that was ok because I was going today.

I showed up this morning and the first thing I saw was one of my cats, dead, right by the drive way (and I had Toot and Smiley with me). I told the kids to stay in the car and searched real quick outside for the other cat and didn't find her so I went inside. No cat BUT every door inside was open but the doors that go to outside were all shut. ALL of the bedroom doors were open. Called mom, she didn't open them so I KNOW the neighbor had gone over there. And put my cats outside. My cats wont go outside by themselves. She had to actually put them out there.

STUPID FUCKING BITCH!!!!!! There is a special place in hell reserved just for her!!!!


RIP Smokey and Fern

Dear Friends

Dear my fellow bloggers,

I've been a tad tight lipped and not answering emails but I want you to know that Benny and I are not splitting up. We are just moving. It was a quick decision and one we made to better our lives. It WILL all work out for the better, BUT it is very stressful and overwhelming to me trying to figure it all out. If you have read me for any amount of time you know I have horses, dogs, cats, family and KIDS. I have to think about ALL of them and what is best for each of them but also what is best for us.

So, thank you all for the luck, prayers and concerns. Means a lot to me and we need them! ;)

Ever so stressed, I mean, thankfully,

April



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Next 3 weeks

Lots of things going on around these parts and so I am gonna be one busy chick. For about the next 2 or 3 weeks, I wont be around. Not on the blogs at least. Will still be checking my email everyday but that is about all I will have time for. BIG changes are happening and happening QUICK! Just wish me luck and say a little prayer that everything goes good and that we make the right decisions on all that we have to make decisions on. Thanks

Black cats beware!

Superstitious? Ya, sometimes I am. Mainly with the black cat crossing my path. I have on many occasions turned around. This past week, I had a black cat cross my path twice and Benny's once. Benny laughed at me because he knows how I am. But then, shit started happening.

Sunday night, a black cat crossed and 30 seconds later I almost hit a deer in the road. It was just standing there staring at me. Benny was sitting in the passenger seat because he had thrown his back out so I didn't want to slam on the brakes (and hurt him worse). Didn't want to swerve because that's how folks die. BUT, didn't want to hit the damn deer. So, I just slowed down and hoped it ran the right way. It didn't. But it didn't run the wrong way either. Just stood there.

Then, Wednesday morning another black cat crossed. A few hours later I was jumping on the trampoline with my kids and broke my toe. That shit hurts! The bruise is a lot darker now and twice as big and I now walk funny.

THEN, yesterday we went to South Louisiana with Benny. A damn black cat crossed our path and of course he laughed. But ya, he wasn't laughing later on when we got lost and he drove 50 miles to only go 4. Or when he had to change a tire on the trailer, in the freezing rain, on a tiny ass hwy with no shoulder. Or when he had to drive in the snow.

I don't think he will be laughing at me anymore. Who am I kidding, he probably will. He's an ass like that sometimes. I do know I'm shooting the next black cat that tries that shit thought!

Who me?

What is a 'Mommy blogger'?

I haven't figured that out yet.

To me, it sounds like someone that blogs about their kids all the time. I don't. I'm not sure about my stats but I'm pretty sure I don't blog about my kids more than half the time. I'd have to go back and look. Or, you could tell me. Do I? I know I bitch about stuff. And I talk about our weekends. And about my life. But, do I talk about my kids a lot? And even if I don't talk about my kids a lot BUT I am a mom that blogs, does that make me a 'mommy blogger'? I don't think so. I like Sage's term, a vanilla blogger.

I cuss on my blog. I say fuck (even though I know it makes my mom cringe). I say pretty much whatever I want and my mom wouldn't want it any other way. She just wants me to be me because I started this blog for a reason. To be me and to find others that relate, no matter if it's a man or woman, to me. Or, even if they don't relate to me but we become friends. The world would suck if we were all alike.

You can't think you know me just because you read my blog. I have said that before. It pisses me off when someone puts me in a stereotype just because I am a mom that happens to have a blog. Carrin knows things about me that none of you know, including my family. Amanda knows things about me that none of you know, including my family. Sage knows things about me that you would be shocked to know, including my family. Hehe. But hey, I share what I want to share with who I want to share it with.

I have made some great friends. Actually, best friends that I will be friends with all my life. I know this. And I know they will always be my friend no matter what. So, if they day comes and I do something that shocks you, don't be surprised (like shaving my head for example). It may be to much info with words or a pic but hey, it's me. If ya don't like it, don't read it.

I have decided I want to put ALL of me out there. Not just the part I thought you would like. So, I am not going to be a 'mommy/vanilla blogger' any more.

I am going to be a April Hall blogger.

I have stopped commenting on a lot of the blogs I use to for 2 reasons. First is because of the blogs I read that DON'T have a pop up window for comments, it screws up my computer and Internet Explorer goes crazy!!!! Like bat shit crazy!! The second reason is I just don't have the time. My comment count (folks that comment on my shit) has gone way down because of that but that's ok. I am cool with that. Give and take. I get that.

Just know, things might be a little different around here. I might be a 'mommy blogger' one week and a R or X rated blogger the next. I will be just like I am in real life, ya never know what ya are gonna get!

Not getting pinched!

It's St Patty's day and you can be damn sure I will be drinking beer to celebrate. But, gotta wear some green too. Don't want to get pinched, too hard. So, I got to thinking about what I should wear that is green.

First thought was a green thong. Benny might like that.
But (pun intended) I don't have the ass for it.

So, how about a green bra?

Hmmm, I got tits but that bra doesn't look like it would quite fit me.

Soooooo, I found the PERFECT outfit for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Looks comfy and I wont get pinched! I'm a total pj kinda girl so this seems perfect. And, Benny could get the matching pair!!!! Sure he would love that! Hehe!

Truthfully, I am Irish and I do love St Patty's day so if I could pick something to wear that I don't already have (I have a ton of St Patty shirts), this is what I would pick to wear.

And I am sure my tits would look great in it!!!!

BTW, I have a clover tattoo so even if I am naked, you can't pinch me!

IT'S A FUCKING JOKE!!!!

So a while back, my friend and favorite male blogger Sage wrote this post. Here is what it said (the part I am talking about).

"Every 14th of February you get the chance to display your fondness for your wife or girlfriend by showering her with gifts, flowers, dinner, shows and any other baubles that women find romantic.

Secretly...guys feel left out. That's right...left out. There's no special holiday for the ladies to show their appreciation for the men in their life.Men as a whole are either too proud or just too embarrassed to admit it.This is why a new holiday has been created .

March 20th is now officially 'Steak, Blow job & Shut the Fuck Up Day.'

Simple, effective and self-explanatory...this holiday has been created so your ladies can have a day to show your man just how much you love him.

No cards, no flowers, no special nights on the town the name of the holiday explains it all...just a steak, a BJ & shut your mouth for the rest of the day! That's it!

This twin pairing of Valentine's Day and Steak, Blow job & Shut the Fuck Up Day will usher in a new age of love as men everywhere will try THAT much harder in February to ensure a more memorable March! It's like a perpetual love machine.

The word is already spreading, but as with any new idea, it needs a little push to start the ball rolling. So spread the word, and help bring love and peace to this crazy world.

Come on folks lets get this thing started!"

Ok, he wrote that as a joke (though I'm sure he's all for it). I thought it was funny as shit. I read it to Benny and he thought it was funny (though I'm sure he's all for it too). So, most agree it's funny because it's a joke, right? That's right, I said MOST.

OK, so why would someone get all upset about it and throw a big hissy fit? Oh ya, because some just like to be pissed. The person that did was all "Valentines isn't just about women,that's so sexist, not fair to same sex couples, blah blah blah...." She actually wrote a whole post about how wrong this is.

Are you kidding me? IT'S A FUCKING JOKE!!!!!! If you can't find humor in harmless jokes then you must be pissed all the fucking time!!!! I admit, some jokes are just plain mean and not funny but this wasn't one of them. Come on now.

Life for that person must suck. They should find a new one.

It's almost 3am so....

this could be either really interesting or really stupid. We'll see.

Ever read a blog and they have SO much fucked up shit happen to them daily that you think they have got to be full of shit? Ya, me too. I just want to call Bullshit with every post. But, I continue to read because it's funny to me. BTW, I never leave mean or rude comments because that would just be shitty. Actually, I don't leave any comments because that would just feed their need of attention. So, I blog about them behind their back. Because that is way more mature. lol

I LOVE the show Jackass because I cry from laughing so hard throughout the whole damn show. Seriously. Watched one tonight where Steve-O waxed his body. Well, bikini line, chest and eye brows. I woke up Benny I was laughing so hard. Them fuckers are so stupid and it cracks me up.

Toot was standing on bleachers earlier and some kid knocked her on her head. She actually landed on her head in the floor. She didn't cry but I think it was because she was in such shock. One second standing on her feet, the next second, standing on her head! I was kinda shocked too and the little shit that did it got away. My kids would have apologised over and over. She still got the Frisbee so ha ha!!! And yes, she was fine. As she says "Cowgirls don't cry"! Her song, not mine.

Hummm, what else. Oh ya. I learned something about myself today. I automatically don't like other people named April because there is no way that they can be as cool as me. BUT, after I get to know them...... I still feel the same way. Just kidding. Maybe.

Why are pro choice folks pissed about the new law in Utah? It says that a woman can be charged criminally for aborting/killing the baby inside of her if she does it illegally? I thought they were pro choice, not pro killing babies? And I thought they wanted it LEGAL to kill babies so women WOULDN'T do it illegally. Guess I am wrong. If ya want an abortion, do it the legal way (and early enough so that the pro choice folks can say it wasn't a person) so us tax payers don't have to cover the bill when the guy you paid to beat the shit out of you goes to far and puts you in the hospital. Seriously? This wasn't already a law of some kind? Oh, I guess that should be a woman's choice also. Fuckin stupid.

Think I will get any mean/rude/nasty comments on this post? If so, who really gives a shit? I don't.

Have a great Friday folks. Mine is starting out pretty good so far.

13 more months!

In 13 months I will be 30 years old. I wonder how my mom will take her baby turning 30? Probably not as good as I will. As I am sure you know, I have 3 kiddos. One of which is 11 years old. Yes, I got pregnant at 16 years old. I made the decision to grow up and keep my child. To me, it wasn't even a choice but that's just how I felt about it. I had another child at 23 and then another at 25. They were planned. I was married and wanted to have children with my husband so it seemed the logical thing to do. But, here is the thing.

I get the weirdest looks and stupidest comments when I tell people I have 3 children. First thing they usually ask is my age and then when I tell them they say, "You're just a baby!". OK, yes, I was a child when I had my first but not with my second and third. But they say that before they even know how old Little Man is. All they hear me say is that I am in my 20's with 3 kids. It's like some people think that people in their 20's can't be mature enough to have children. The crazy thing is that 99% of the time it is women that I get this from. The other day I was at my brother in laws house and a woman asked who Toot and Smiley belonged to. I told her they were mine and she looked shocked and asked how old I was. I told her and she said "2 kids at 28, that must be hard." I then told her that I actually had 3 kids and the oldest was 11. You could see her doing the math in her head and then she said "You poor girl." I said, "WHY? I love my life and wouldn't change a thing about it. It's no harder for me than any other mom of 3". My sis in law could tell I was irritated and stepped in and said "She is one of the best moms I know. Her age doesn't matter."

I know a lot of women nowadays are getting their careers going and then having kids and I see nothing wrong with that at all. Not all women want to do that though. What is wrong with being a mom first? How would they feel if when I found out they were in their 40's with 3 young kids I said "But you're so old"? They would probably call me a bitch.

Yes, I have made mistakes with my kids but who hasn't. I don't think it has anything to with the fact that I am in my 20's. I also have very good kids that respect others and are well behaved. That also doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I am in my 20's.

So, I am looking forward to turning 30. I just think once I can say I am 30 that people will quit giving me weird looks and saying stupid things when they find out I have 3 kids. It's not that I care what they think, I am just tired of dealing with the stupidity.

Award time

I got an award today so I thought I'd post about it. Sage gave me the Kreative Blogger award. What a sweety. Anyway, blogger is being a bitch and wont let me upload the picture. I am suppose to tell you 5 things about me that you don't already know. Hmmm, I'm pretty much an open book so this may take me a minute.

1. I cuss way to much but my kids know better and don't repeat me. Sometimes in our house the rule is 'do as I say, not as I do' and I think that is perfectly ok because I am an adult and they are not.

2. I don't watch movies that are older than me unless it is a really good western.

3. I really hate shopping. For anything. Especially clothes because I hate trying on clothes at the store but I wont buy it unless I try it on first.

4. I also really hate talking on the phone unless it's with my mom. With everyone else I would rather just text. Even Benny.

5. In our house, I have total control of the remote. Benny doesn't even really know how to use it, he just automatically hands it over to me so we always watch what I want to watch. As long as I don't put it on a reality show, he is good with what I choose.

OK, that took me forever to come up with. Not really interesting but it's all I could think of.
I am also suppose to give it to 5 people but I am tired right now so I'm just gonna keep it all to myself.

That's my girl!

When Little Man was an only child, I would always tell him he was my favorite son. He loved it and I would always get some cuddle time. After Toot was born, I would say she was my favorite daughter and he was my favorite son. After Smiley, I quit saying it all together because if I said it to Toot, Little Man expected to hear the same and I just couldn't say that to him anymore.

Well, Toot is a pretty smart cookie and has come up with her own version. She completely knows how to play the males in the house. I have a feeling she will be like that with all the males in her life. She is still trying to work it on me but it doesn't quite work as well.

Anytime she wants something, she will tell the men of the house that they are the BEST big brother/little brother/daddy in the WHOLE world. And it works! EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. I just sit back and chuckle to myself. It especially works on Little Man. When she says that, he will give her the moon and stars if that is what she wants. If it is something big that she wants, she throws in a really sweet hug. I'm tellin ya, that girl knows how to work it.

The other day she wanted something and it was cute watching her get it. She told Little Man that he was the best big brother and then just sat there looking at him. He looked confused and said "What?" and she said "Well....". More confusion. The she said "What am I?" and smiled. By the way, she KNOWS he has another little sister. So he said "You are the best little sister in the whole world". She looked at me, smiled and then ran away. She had just won in her mind. Little Man looked at me and I looked at him like he just got played. Then he said "Well, she is."

My heart melted a little and I told him that he was, in fact, the best big brother ever.

A little if this and a little of that

Just some random thoughts going threw my head.

I have (for the second time) been asked to take pics down off my Facebook page thingy. I don't get why people care. I mean, if ya don't want people seeing/knowing what you do, don't let someone take a pic. I guess I kinda don't get it because I don't care what folks think really, unless I really care for them but then I'm not ashamed of what all I do. The second person just didn't want her work friends to see them and I get that so I made them to where only my friends could see them instead of friends of friends. I actually didn't even realize friends of friends could see them. I have never looked at someone's pics I didn't know. The first person just didn't like how she looked in the pic (even though she is so beautiful). That one kinda bugged me.

Yesterday I was woke up by one of my dogs jumping on me. One of my outside dogs that would love to eat my cats. All because my neighbor just walked into my house and let them in. I was PISSED!!!! I went down and yelled, told her she was trespassing and to get the hell out of my house. Think she got the point this time? Before when she did it, I was nice about it. Not anymore. No more miss nice neighbor. What the hell is wrong with her? I don't just walk in to anyone's house except my moms and that only after I tell her I am on my way.

Little Man got in to a little fight yesterday. I was proud of him when I found out. He finally stood up to the bully that has been messing with him all year. I just wish Little Man had really kicked his ass. Not trying to promote violence but enough is enough dammit! I have taught my kids that they are not door mats and to not let anyone walk all over them or bully them. They both got in school suspension for three days and neither one was hurt physically. I think the other kid should have got suspended. I guess standing up for yourself is just as bad as bullying someone. My ex said he is going to talk to the principle about it. Been there, done that, obviously didn't help very much.

I'm going to paint a huge room we have. I am doing dark red walls and dark brown floors. What color should I do the ceiling? Gonna go look at paint samples tonight I think. Also, I know dark colors make a room look smaller but this room is HUGE and has a ton of windows so I am not worried about that. I'm excited to finally have something besides white walls everywhere!!!

I had a dream last night that I worked out. Does that count as actually working out? Or is that just my subconscious telling me to get off my ass and actually work out?

Workin girl!

I know I have talked before about Benny working shutdowns but you may not know what that means. Benny's company goes into power plants, shuts down part of it and then fixes whatever needs to be fixed. Some last a few weeks and others last months. Here are what the power plants his office works on look like. Talk about job security, folks will always want electricity!
Benny is the tool room manager. Basically, he has to get all the tools ready to go to the power plants so they can do their job fixing everything. He takes care of basically all the plants in Texas and Louisiana, which is a ton of tools to keep up with. Then, sometimes he has to actually go to the plants to try and make sure all the tools end up back at his warehouse. Not so easy. This weekend he had to get 5 huge game boxes (huge tool box) and 2 conex's (one was 20ft long and one was 40 ft) loaded to send to south TX. Before he had this job, he was on his tools actually fixing plants. This is a conex. It turns into the tool room once they get to the plant.

Well, I decided to go help him. He works alone and if I wanted to see him at all this weekend, I had to work. I have no problem working so he basically worked my ass off! Now I totally understand why he is so damn tired when he gets home. The tools he loads aren't little either. THANK GOD for wheel barrels but they seriously need to get him a forklift!!!

Anyway, we worked ALL day Friday and Saturday and half a day Sunday. I'm tired and sore! Poor Benny is back at it today making sure it all gets loaded on the truck right and start loading the next round of tools for another job site. I told him I wasn't doing shit today but I do plan on making him a great supper and getting a bath ready for him.

I have always appreciated what he did so that I could be a stay at home mom but after doing it for 3 days, I have a new found appreciation for him. At least I get a 4 day break before I am back at it again with him. To me that is a small price to pay to get to hang out with him all weekend.

Last weekend

Started like this

Then some of this
And ended with this! (That's my brother in law)

This weekend wont be so crazy. I am actually at Benny's work helping him out this weekend. Hope you all have a great one though!

Screw being PC!

I am so sick of the political correctness bullshit and it's about to drive me crazy. Oh wait, did I just offend crazy poeple?

I think it is so sad that people have to watch every freakin word that comes out of their mouth because they might offend someone. I personally don't because I really don't give a shit (and everyone I associate myself with agrees with me).

And what makes someone worthy of being offended? If I call my husband an asshole jokingly, am I offending true assholes? If I say 'that stupid rug tripped me', am I offending the stupid people of the world? When I told Benny he was a dork because he sang some cheezy song, did I offend the dorks? What about when I called him a freak? I didn't take offense to it. I mean, come on now.

Now, I'm not for calling people names to be mean because that's just... mean. Ya, sometimes I do because I can be a bitch (did I offend dogs or women on that one?) or I'm just being silly but I don't not do it because it might offend someone. True story, my mom told my son to sit Indian style one day and my sis in law jumped on her saying it was offensive to Indians. The correct wording is cross legged. Are you kidding me? Do the Indians even know that they are suppose to be offended by that? And why would they be? I have a lot of Indian in me and I wasn't offended.

I really think some people just LOOK for reasons to get pissed and cause a commotion. Is their life really that boring? When someone makes blond jokes, I don't get offended and throw a hissy fit. Hell, usually I will tell them one right back that's even funnier. Just because someone has an opinion, that doesn't make it true. Also, when someone says 'All so and so's are ......' obviously their thinking is off so why would I even care what comes out of their mouth?

I just think people need to chill the fuck out.

How do you know when a blond is having a bad day? There is a tampon behind her ear and she can't find her pencil! hehe

One proud mom, right here!!

I just recieved this e-mail this morning and had to share it with yall.

April,

I was just told by one of the teachers that junior high cheerleader tryouts are coming up. There are lots of little girls trying out and one of them is rather chubby. Seems all the boys are making fun of her and calling her fat.

There were two little boys in sixth grade who didn't make ugly remarks and stood up for her...one was your son.

Little Man is a blessing to all of us...he has been taught to be kind and courteous to others, no matter the circumstances. He is a fine young man with huge potential in this life and I am very proud of him.

Love,
*****

Randomness, kinda

I worked my ass off today ripping carpet out of my house just to piss my neighbor off. And because I hated the carpet!! I feel better now. Kinda. Well, I will after I rip out all these ugly ass curtains!!!! And BTW, that was a huge ass room and it took me all day so I was pretty proud of myself!

Ever seen Criminal Minds? I would totally do Dr. Spencer Reid!!! I love him!!! Totally want to steal his innocence!!! hehe! I sooo would. And he would LOVE it! hehe! I'm just that good! hehe!

Ever seen Derrick Morgan (from the same show)? Would totally let him steal my innocence!!! He's fuckin HOT!!!!!

Ummm, had more to say but I seem to have forgotten what it was......

Later taters, gotta get back to my show! ;)

Snow, and lots of it!

Yup, we finally got some snow. About 6 to8 inches of snow! The kids loved it and it was so beautiful. It is all completely gone now but was fun while it lasted.

This is the view from upstairs over looking the pasture.

Of course we had to make a snowman. Our dog was glad Benny made a trail for her cold feet!

We aren't really use to getting snow so the kids have a few pair of socks on their hands so they don't get 'snowbite' (Toots word for frostbite).

Think the snowman was thirsty!

Dear....

Dear Benny's brother and sister-in-law,

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for the early birthday present! Yall are so awesome for getting us tickets to the Hank Jr concert on April 9th. I have never had the chance to see him in concert even though he is my favorite singer (besides Benny of course). I am sure we will all have a blast. Also, thanks for the hotel room because I am sure that we will be in no condition to drive when it's over. I am so excited and can't wait until then. I owe ya bigtime!

Forever grateful,
April

Dear Benny,

I am sorry I felt so bad last night but thank you for taking care of me. Really means a lot. Also, I LOVED the card you got me and yes, it was perfect.

I love you,
April

Dear Toot,

Why in the world are you up so early? Go back to sleep!

Love ya baby girl,
Momma

For more letters, go visit Shortmama!

Seven years ago today, I married the man of my dreams.

I just wish I could quit puking long enough to enjoy tonight.

One week

That's all it took. Really, not even that long.

This was my weekend with Little Man and everything was great. Just a normal weekend but still great. He was in a good mood, no arguing, no fighting, just him being his sweet self. I woke him up this morning at 6:45am to get ready for school and he was great. Usually he is hard to wake up and sooooo slow getting ready. Not today. He got right up (in a good mood), got dressed and finished eating in record time. We actually left about 10 min ahead of time.

That's when the mood changed. As soon as we got in the car he was a completely different person. He wasn't mean, he was just pissy. I asked what was wrong and got the normal "nothin" answer. Then I remembered last Thursday morning. He was all fine at home and as soon as he got in the car with my mom, pissy. So, I started digging. It actually didn't require much digging.

I asked if something was going on at school and he said no so I asked what was wrong because I KNEW something was. Then he spilled it.

He said, "I just don't want to go over there!". I was a little stunned and asked where but I already knew the answer. He answered very upset, "EMILY'S HOUSE!" (That is his step-mom.) I was shocked because his dad just got back home so I thought he would still he excited about that. Then he said, "I just didn't know it was going to be like this." All I said was "I'm sorry".

I knew it wouldn't be all fun and games like I think he thought it would be but I didn't expect this reaction. I warned him back in June that it took a lot of money and lawyers (and stress!) to get the custody switched and to make sure he was doing what he thought was best for him and that he couldn't keep switching back and forth. He still said that was what he wanted and now I am thinking he is regretting it.

The even sadder part is, last week his dad didn't work so he was with Little Man the whole time but he starts back today. That means that Emily will be the one picking Little Man up from school and his dad wont be home until about 6:30. I bet he is going to be so happy once Wednesday rolls around and he can come back home for the night.

It broke my heart seeing him like that.

So funny but so creepy!

A few years back, I decided that a hamster would be a great pet for Little Man. I had one when I was little and loved it. So, I finally talk Benny into getting one. Benny is the kind of person that goes way overboard so of course this hamster had a freakin MANSION. I'm talking 3 story, very colorful, tubes and little houses everywhere. It was so big it had to stay in the living room on our entertainment center. Benny decided that the cage was so huge that we should get 2 hamsters. THEN, he decided it would be cool to get a boy and girl, breed them and then sell them back to the pet store. This is where everything goes crazy.

We get them home and the little shits are MEAN! They would bite EVERYTIME you tried to touch them. So, basically they just stayed in the cage and I got to clean it all the time. Not much fun. THEN, we had babies. 8 to be exact. Now they were cute! We would take them out and look at them and Little Man loved it. That was until the daddy ate them. What an asshole.

A few weeks later, we had more babies. 11 of them. The daddy like this bunch or was scared of what the mommy would do and he let them live. When I would clean the cage, they would scamper to other parts and so I didn't have to take them out. The tubes were colored and hard to see through so I never really looked for them much less did a head count.

One night, everyone else was sleeping and I was hanging out with Smiley (he was only like a month old) and watching TV. I noticed something long and white stretching from the top of the cage to the bottom. It was the belly side of a FUCKIN SNAKE!!!!! I flipped out!!!!! I stood on the couch and start screaming for Benny while looking all over the floor for more snakes. We lived in a TINY mobile home and no one woke up to my screams.

I grabbed Smiley, RAN on the furniture to my bedroom, jumped on the bed and screamed "There is a fuckin snake in the house!!!!!" That woke him up. FAST! Benny is a tad scared of snakes. He went from sleeping to standing on the bed in less than a second. I told him what was going on and we go investigate.

I take my place back on the couch as he looks in the cage. The snake is now big enough that it can't get out of the cage (it was a metal cage). Benny decides to do a head count of hamsters. There was ONE! The other 12 were gone. Guess that's why the snake was so big. The only survivor was the daddy. Then Benny says he is going to shoot it with his shot gun. Ummm, no. That would put a huge hole in our house. I say we should put a sheet over the cage and carry it out so he can shoot it and he says, "Ummmm, not no but hell no!" He doesn't want to get that close to the snake. We agree on him using Little Man's BB gun.

I get Smiley undercover and Benny goes to shooting. I think he probably shot that damn thing like 50 times. We had BB's bouncing around everywhere and some actually hitting the snake. He wouldn't quit shooting until it was no longer moving. Once it was dead, he got a coat hanger and got the snake out and into a pillow case (that he made me hold). After that, I wanted the last rodent gone so more snakes wouldn't show up. He let the little guy (that was shaking soooo bad) go off into the woods.

Needless to say, we didn't sleep there that night. We loaded up the kids and headed to my moms. After all the drama, I got to thinking. Just how long WAS that snake in there? He was there long enough to eat 12 hamsters and get fat enough he couldn't escape. How many times had I put my hands in a cage where a snake was living? Gives me the heebie jeebies just thinking about it.

We moved very shortly after that. We now both agree, never again will be have a pet that snakes eat as food!

Today's the day

Well, the time has finally come. I have never had two different emotions flowing threw me so strong before and it's a little weird. On one hand I am soooo happy but on the other I am soooo sad. I have just been trying to ignore the sad and focus on the happy but today is making that hard because today everything changes.

Back in June my ex husband took me to court to have our custody switched with Little Man. I had Little Man 55% of the time and he had 45%. I agreed to it because that is what Little Man wanted. I totally understand an 11 year old boy wanting to spend more time with his father so I truly didn't take it personal. My ex travels a lot so Little Man felt this was the way to actually get to see his dad more. I get it.

When all this happened, my ex left the next month (and it was summer) so nothing really changed. It really didn't feel like anything had changed at all. When he is out of town for an extended amount of time Little Man obviously is at home with me. My ex has been gone since July because he is in the military. It has been very hard on Little Man. He couldn't call his dad, go see his dad, or even call him dad when they did get to talk on the phone or via email. They are VERY close so this affected him in a huge way.

Little Man's dad is finally home. My son finally gets to hug his dad after 7 months. I gave up my weekend so he could go be with his dad. I am soooooo happy for Little Man. I am so excited for him. I know he will be floating on cloud nine for a while. He will feel like every parent wants their child to feel, nothing but pure happiness.

But, I also feel so sad because what happened in June will now take effect. I feel sad for me and sad for Toot and Smiley. Toot and Smiley hate it when Little Man is not home and always ask when he will be home. Toot actually says all the time "I am so sad when Bubba isn't here". They don't understand why he is not home some weekends. Now, he will only be home one night during the week and 1st, 3rd and 5th weekends. Luckily those weekends are Fri night, Sat night and Sun night instead of just Fri and Sat night. It's going to be weird not having him here most of the week. Weird and sad and heartbreaking for me.

I have put on my happy face for Little Man and have not let him see me sad but he's a smart cookie. He has asked me about 50 times this week if I am ok with it all. I tell him that I am ok and that I am so happy that he is getting his dad back. The last time he asked he just looked at me and said "Are you sure?". I knew he wasn't believing me so I just said that it would be weird and that it would take me some time getting use to it. He is a sweety and said "Well, you do get more weekends so you get me for the fun times now.". I hate that he feels the need to comfort me.

I held it together great this morning while he was getting ready for school but as soon as him and Benny left, I had myself a little cry. Now, I am just trying to imagine the look on his face when he sees his dad for the first time in a long time. I have seen that face before (his dad left for 9 months when he was a lot younger) and it makes me happy.

Update on the date

We didn't do date night. We all decided to do it this coming weekend when we aren't so broke. Instead we hung out with Benny's brothers house and had a blast watching football all weekend. Really sucks that the Cowboys got their asses handed to them but I was happy about the Jets winning.

No, I am not a Jets fan. That was actually the first game of theirs I actually watched. Benny and I have a bet going. I bet him that the Jets will make it to the superbowl. Not that they will win but that they make it to the game. They are such the under dogs and he was convinced the Chargers would stomp them so he took the bet. Now I just need them to beat the Colts! Wish me luck. If they win, I get a FULL body massage and he has to keep his clothes on so he actually finishes the massage. I'm talking head to toe!!!

Sunday we brought my niece home with us and she spent the night and then she got to ride a horse for the first time. She did really good. I'd show ya a pic except for some reason I can't get them from my phone to computer right now.

Anyway, we are doing date night this coming Friday. Still have no idea what we will do but at least now we have some money to spend.

HELP!!!

Benny gets a 3 day weekend. WOOHOO! I love that his job works 4 days a week/10 hours a day instead of the normal 5/8's. So I get him for 3 days all to myself with the two little ones of course.

Except we wont have the two little ones Saturday night! My folks have agreed to let us have a date night every month and Saturday is the day!

There is one slight problem though and where I could use a little of your help. We are broke. Funny how bills and food and gas can do that to ya. Ok, not funny but life. So, we got about $20 to use for our date night so it's time to get creative. That's where you come in to play. What are some good things we could do on $20 without kids?

Thinking the movies because I don't think we have EVER gone to the movies without a kid. I already had Little Man when we got together so we always took him. Actually, the first couple of years we were together we (Benny and I) never even went to the movies together at all. It always worked out where either he took Little Man or I did but we never all 3 went. I don't know why. I don't even know what we would go see. Guess I need to see what's playing.

So, what else would be a great idea on limited funds. I know I have some creative readers so let the ideas poor in!!!

Also, gotta tell you about a funny conversation I had with Benny.
First, I gotta tell ya that my brain sometimes thinks really random stuff that has nothing to do with what we are talking about. The smallest thing can get my brain going in a totally different direction.
Anyway, we were sitting in bed watching football (I think) the other day and a commercial for Private Practice came on. That got us talking about how pretty Kate Walsh is. He asked if they still showed the Cadillac commercial that she was on. I told him I didn't think so but that you can look it up on youtube. While we were having this conversation I was digging in my purse for something and ran across Toots blue ribbon from her rodeo debut. So out of no where I said "You need to nail her......cork board back together so I can hang her stuff up". I paused because of something on TV and when I finished the sentence I looked at him and he looks SOOOOO surprised and confused.

Benny: "WHAT?!"
Now I am confused.
Me: "The corner came unnailed and I need you to fix it."
Him: (now even more confused) "WHAT?!"
Me: "Toots cork board. You need to fix it."
Him: "OHHHHH, I just thought you told me I needed to nail Kate Walsh!"
Then we just both cracked up and I told him if he ever had the opportunity to be my guest.

I guess the pause in my sentence threw him off and I was confused because in my head, I had totally switched subject and didn't think of how it would sound. He is usually really good at keeping up with me. Maybe he just heard what he wanted to hear!!!

TMI Tuesday but 2 days late!

So I haven't had much to say so I thought I would join in on TMI Tuesdays. Never done it before and I am late because I am doing it on Thursday so I hope they forgive me!

So here it goes:
Would you rather...

1: Have eyes that will always smile or a voice that makes people calm?
Eyes. I always notice peoples eyes way before their voice. Besides, sometimes people don't need to be calmed down. Sometimes they need to just let it all out!

2: Have an affair and your partner catches you or your partner have an affair and you catch him/her?
Hard one. I'm going with my partner have an affair that way I have a reason to kick his ass and not the other way around.

3: Have better sex or more money?
More money for sure!!! Better sex is easy but more money isn't most of the time. If more money was as easy as better sex we would all be rich!

4: Be able to read every one's mind all the time or always know the future?
Totally read every ones mind all the time. Don't want to know the future at all because then what would be the fun in living?

5: Your partner have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else?
Have sex because I think I might somehow be able to get over that but if he fell in love with someone, you can't get over that. At least I couldn't!

Bonus (as in optional):
What one thing, big or small, would you change in your life if granted one wish by a lamp bound genie? Why?
This may seem funny but I would have chose for us to stay in our old house instead of moving to this one. Main reason is because our nearest neighbor was a mile away instead of 100 yards away. I like solitude!

Better late than never....

End of year Q & A
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Bought a boat. And horses. That was much fun.



2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I think I did this one pretty good. Next one is to be a better person, mom and wife.



3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My SIL once again had a baby. A little girl on 12/28/09. Cali Jean .... Love her name!!!!!



4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully no.


5. What countries did you visit?
Same answer. None. One day I would love to go to Ireland.


6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More patience with my hubby and kids.



7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
When Little man started Jr High. My Little Man is growing up!!



8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being a better wife and mom.



9. What was your biggest failure?
Being a house cleaner!


10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Thankfully no!!



11. What was the best thing you bought?
Thats a toss up. Love our horses but also love out boat!



12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine!!! For keeping my mouth shut!!!! HEHE!!!!



13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
My niece and my brothers. Shit happens!



14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills!


15. What did you get really, really excited about?
Toot riding the knee board by herself!!!!!



16. What songs will always remind you of 2009?
Don't have one.


17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a)Happier or sadder?
Same
b) Skinnier or fatter?
Fatter

c) Richer or poorer?
About the same. Which aint good!


18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Saved more money.


19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stress over stuff.



20. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Just fell deeper in love with Hubby. Cheesy, I know!


21. How many one-night stands?
Why even ask? I am married!


22. What was your favorite TV program?
Still Bones!


23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate. It's not good for the soul.



24. What was the best book you read?
I don't even remember. Probably the Twilight series. Did i read anything else? Oh ya, The Womens Murder Club series. Totally forgot until I read Carrins again, "I hope they serve beer in hell" by Tucker Max. It was funny, vulgar and a fast read. She sent that to me and it was awesome!!!!



25. What did you ask for and get?
I didn't ask for anything this year but Benny and I got a new 46 in flat screen!



27. What did you want and not get?
I don't want for much so I can't think of anything.



28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Have know idea


29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Benny worked and I drank with the camper neighbor I think. Don't really remember. I turned 28! So old, I know!!! lol


30. What's one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Same. Winning the lottery and being debt free and allowing my parents to be debt free. I guess I should have at least bought a lottery ticket if I wanted that to happen.



31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
It's the same.
I'm a total t-shirt and jeans kinda girl with boots (and a zip up hoodie on the cold days). In the summer heat it was shorts and t-shirts with flip-flops.



32. What kept you sane?
Carrin, Amanda and Clint!!!!



33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Still the same.
I have a total crush on David Boreanaz (Seeley Booth from Bones).


34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Not gonna go there. If you have been reading my blog, you know.


35. Who did you miss?
Little Man. Every summer when he spends a month with his dad is hell on me.


36. Who were the best new people you met?
I got to meet Carrin in person and that was cool as shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!


37. What do you look forward to in 2010?
Being really happy with life, Carrins wedding and hopefully meeting Amanda in person.



38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
REALLY enjoy life!!!!!!!!!!!!



39. What song lyrics best sum up 2009 for you?
Don't have any.

For me? Not so much.

So, how do you feel about plastic surgery? I was all for it FOR ME until I actually had to have a surgery. Now, I can not imagine doing an elective surgery. I wanted a boob lift because as us moms know, kids kill your boobs.

But then I had to have a lump removed from my boob. It hurt. It hurt bad. And it was only a 2 inch incision! I can't even imagine electing to have someone cut even more on me. Sound crazy to me. But.....

I have 2 sister in laws, a good friend, and a BEST friend that have had boob jobs.

2 of those 4 had problems. Bad problems. That's 50%!!!! BUT, ALL said they would do it all over again!!!!! And, the 2 that didn't have problems, you wouldn't know they had a 'boob job' unless they told you because the doc did that good of a job. I wouldn't have known except one I knew before and the other told me. Dude, they are hot with or without them BTW!

I don't get it just because I can't handle pain but I have had big boobs since 6th grade so who am I to judge. And I don't. I get why they want them. They ROCK! But I wont ever 'lift' mine because of the pain of surgery. That is the only reason. If not for the pain, I would be all for it!!!!

What I don't get it is the face lift/botox thing...... I know I have wrinkles (at 28) and I think I have earned every one of them. I don't get the folks that try to look like a Barbie. And I'm not talking about folks with BDI. It's the folks that want to be prettier but yet are already pretty but have lots of money to blow.

Every woman I know that had some kind of fix in my opinion didn't need it. And they didn't think they needed it, but wanted it. I think nothing less or more of them. Some are my sisters, best friends, and some I didn't know how they looked before. And, I think, if it makes you feel better about yourself and you can deal with the pain then go for it!!!! I just want folks to do it for the right reason, for them and not for societies reasons.

If ya want it, go for it but please make sure you have a good doc. You sure as hell don't want to end up looking worse or die! It does happen!!!!

So, how do you feel about it?

Just my luck

Unless you have been living under a rock you know that it is cold. Cold basically EVERYWHERE! Our low tonight is suppose to be 13 degrees with a wind chill below zero. THAT'S WAY TO COLD FOR ME! That's one reason I live in Texas. It's not suppose to do that!

Down her in the south, we don't do cold so well and neither do our animals. For instance, all the schools over in Shreveport, LA closed today because it might snow and ice over (it didn't). Benny's office told him not to go to the office because is might ice over (still didn't). He still had to work but just a lot closer to home. Like 15 miles away which is good.

This morning our electricity went out at 4:45am. We sleep with the tv on so I woke up right when it happened. I jumped up and looked outside. No ice or snow. Walked to another window and my neighbor did have her electricity. WTF?! So I called it in to the electric company. Benny got ready in the dark as I laid there pissed that I didn't have a heater working. At 5:30 the electric company showed up and called from the driveway to tell me to get my dogs. Guess the truck scared the shit out of my boxer. Then I had to let the guy in the pasture to get to the transformer. It was sooooo cold. I stood there while he worked. My cig wouldn't even stay lit because it was so cold and windy. By 6:30am we have electricity and I am back in bed.

At 11am Benny calls and says we have to get some big round bails of hay to block the wind off of our horses. This kind of cold and baby animals don't go good together. Some folks have already lost some cows because of freezing to death and seeins how we have a 3 month old baby horse, we gotta do something fast. My dad spent most of the morning looking for someone with hay and when he finally did find some, they of course jacked up the price. Asshats!

So, now I am ready for summer because this shit just sucks!

Thank God!

The holidays are over and life is finally back to normal. We are at home just relaxing and watching a little (actually a lot) of football today. That usually what we do on Sundays. Yesterday I spent the day taking down all the Christmas stuff, cleaning the house and burning the tree.

I am so glad we are now back to normal. I love the holidays but sometimes enough is enough and I just can't wait for it to be over. Now, it I could just get my account back in order, life will be great!!! Holidays can be a killer!

My kids crack me up. This morning I have been watching them play. I love to do that. Anyway, Smiley LOVES anything with 4 wheels. He got every size vehicle for Christmas from hot wheels to a tractor he can ride. This morning he has been lining up his hot wheels and running over them with a big monster truck he got. Then he turns at me and smiles real big while winking at me. Thinking his daddy needs to take him to a monster truck thing. He'd love it.

Hope everyone has a great day!

My new niece!

Miss Cali was born on the 28th and her daddy (my big brother) and big brother Jase are so wrapped already!

Grandma and Grandpa might be too!!!!!!