Do you know me - Again

This had been a weird week for me. Twice in the last week, someone has put words in my mouth. Gotta tell ya, that really irritates me. For someone to tell ME what I am for or against when I haven't even told them yet or to tell me how I feel about something when I haven't told them yet is just bullshit in my book.

So, I thought I would repost something I posted a long time ago. A lot of you have already read it because you have been with me that long but some of you haven't. Also, I added a few.

It was titled "Do You Know Me"

Nope, you don't. Not really. But, I don't really know you either. If you have read my blog, you know that my kids drive me crazy at times (who's doesn't) and that I love them so much (who doesn't). You know how I met Hubby and that he too can drive me crazy. But you also know that I love him. You also know that I love my parents. And you also know that Little Man has diabetes and that Toot is so funny and Smiley likes to piss her off. Oh ya, and that I got hurt a lot as a kid. And everything else I choose to share with you.

But there is so much more to me that you don't know.I was reading a post by someone else today that really made me think. What do we really know about each person that we read about? Not a lot I'm guessing. Only what they choose to share with me and you. And, how nice of them to actually tell us what they do. When someone leaves a bad or nasty comment, that just shows what kind of person the one leaving the nasty comment truly is. Or, is on that day.

I'm going to tell you about me, the real me. And, if you don't like it then please, feel free to never read my blog again. If you don't like me after reading this, I probably don't want you reading it anyway. I'd rather have one reader that likes me than 100 that don't. That's just how I roll.

So here's a little (or a lot, depending how it goes) about the true me (and I'm not going to explain a whole lot). Some, I am proud of, some, not so much. Either way, that's what made me and who I am. Love it or leave it.

I don't lie to my kids or anyone else about who I truly am.

I got pregnant at 16 and had Little Man at 17.

I cuss. And I say 'cuss' instead of 'curse'. I also cuss in front of my kids but they don't. They know it is grown up words and that they are not allowed to say those words.

I am a major dog person and not a cat person. Love dogs! Cat's bug me but the kids love them (and I do too sometimes).

I treat people how I would like to be treated most of the time.

Sometimes I am a total bitch to Hubby and other people, but I always apologize when I am (now).

I drink beer and love it. Wine and the hard stuff just makes me stupid so I don't drink it (anymore).

I did drugs in high school. Not all the time but did try a lot. I don't anymore(and haven't for about 9 years) and wouldn't allow anyone to do them in my house or around my kids.

I don't care what people think of me UNLESS it is that I am a bad Mom. That one pisses me off because I am one hell of a Mom.

I am not a good housekeeper at all. I would rather play with my kids or be on the computer.

I have 3 tattoos and don't regret them. You can only see them if I want you to. And I want one more.

I have taken out 3 piercings that I got when I was 18. Once again, you couldn't see those unless I wanted you to.

I had some really bad shit happen to me when I was younger.

I have had some really bad shit happen to me since I have become an adult.

I don't act like a victim. Those things helped make me who I am today.

I have a low self esteem some of the time.

I have battled depression most of my life but have learned to deal and when I can't, don't feel bad about taking meds.

I love riding back roads with Hubby.

We say "I love you" more than anyone I know and we mean it.

I love all kinds of music. Some of my favorites are Guns and Roses, Hank Jr., NOFX, Nickleback, (original) Misfits, Brad Paisley, Randy Travis, Kid Rock, Aerosmith, Tom Petty, Johnny Cash, Merle Haggard, and my Hubby. Punk rock, Rock, Old country, New country, 80's rock, R&B, some rap, and 50's stuff. I like it all except classical.

I speak my mind.

I am a Christian.

I sin.

I ask for to be forgiven.

I don't go to church.

I rarely wear make-up.

I rarely 'fix' my hair.

I don't like to dress up or wear dresses.

I am silly.

I am emotional a lot.

I was in an abusive relationship for a while. (I never understood woman that were in one until I was that woman and still kinda don't get it)

I love chick flicks and horror movies.

I let my 4 year old daughter watch scary movies because she LOVES them.

I tell my kids all the time how cute/pretty/handsome they are.

I tell them when they are driving me crazy.

I protect them from anything and everything I think might hurt their hearts and souls.

I am very smart. Book smart and street smart (by that I mean, I made straight A's all threw school and have common sense). I graduated high school 1 year early because it was so easy to do. I was very close to getting my degree in college but decided I didn't want to do that forever. But, when I don't know the answer, I admit it. And then I find out the answer.

I would take the diabetes from my son and put it in me if I could.

I would die for my kids.

I shaved my head at 14. It's just hair, it will (and did) grow back.

I was raised in Ft. Worth and loved it.

I was raised by a west Texas country boy and an Army brat Mom.

I now live in a tiny town and love it.

I hate to shop for me but love to shop for my kids.

I have a small family even though I have 4 older brothers. One Mom, one Dad, four brothers, one great-grandfather, one grandmother, one aunt, two cousins, and one nephew and two nieces.

I can't stand our current president.

I believe I have high morals that I teach to my kids.

I am scared to get a shot but have to give them to my son all the time.

I always try to do what is best for my children, even if I don't always like it.

If I don't like you, you will know.

The only thing I truly want for my children if for them to be happy with who they are. The rest will fall into place.

And, I write long post!!!!

That is just a little, there is a lot more to me and everyone else you read about. Remember that next time you want to leave a nasty or rude comment.

It was nice to actually write all that. Pretty much, what you see is what you get, once you really see me.

If you truly open your eyes, the world is a much brighter place.

Summertime Fav's

Gwen wants to know our 5 favorite things about summer. She is such a sweety so I thought I would go ahead and let her know.

1. Fun family time. We have fun all year but not like in the summer. Summer for us is ALL about spending time with the family and all about having a good time.


2. Outdoor activities - As if that isn't already obvious. Benny get's 3 day weekends all summer long and I guarentee you, those days wont be spent indoors. We love to go camping, boating, swimming, golfing, grilling.... You name it, we probably do it (unless it's something just totally weird and way out there). Speaking of grilling, check out how Benny was grilling last night! Our regular grill is out of gas so he used the one from the camper. He was cracking me up in his boots and pj's.


3. Longer days. In the winter, when Benny leaves the house and when he gets home, it is dark. In the summer, there is still a few hours of daylight when he gets home.


4. Ice cold beer on hot days. Soooo good!


5. The tan I get. I am one of the lucky ones that don't burn, just tan. Sounds silly but I love it.

So, if you haven't done this, what's your favorite things about summertime?

I'm AWESOME

That's what they told me. They being Benny and the kids. I felt pretty awesome and proud of myself too.

We went to the lake Sunday. We made the drive up to Oklahoma and went to Brokenbow Lake. That is one of the most beautiful lakes. I would have been happy just riding around all day but of course, we had a new toy to try out. Rather, we had a new toy I had to try out.

My brother gave us his old wakeboard and it was time for me to attempt this thing. I have seen a lot of people doing it and I gotta tell ya, it doesn't look easy. I called my brother on the way and said "OK, how do I actually get up on this thing?" He laughed and said "However you can! It took me three tries before I got up on it." OK, he can do trick and flips and stuff on this thing so I was now even more worried about it. He also rode snowboards all the time when he lived in Utah.

So we get out there, it takes me forever to get the thing on, and in the water I go.

Then, I pop up on the first freakin try!!!! WOOHOO!!

Then, all I can think is "Now what do I do?" I could go left but not right. This is going to take some work.

After that, I got on my trusty knee board. I have ridden a knee board since I was 4 years old. Benny didn't take pics if me wakeboarding (I was a little pissed about that) but he did of me knee boarding.

Forwards

Backwards

Outside

When I came back in the wake, I jumped it and landed very wrong! Yup, ended face first in the water. And for some reason, I am only sore on my left side. Guess my right side is in better shape!

Oh well, the fam still thought I was awesome! Also, this summer will probably be me rattling on about our weekends. Summertime to us is all about us having fun with our kids!

The races and lots of beer

This weekend was so much fun. Friday night we went to the races and one of my brothers and his wife joined us. That was my first time at the races and I gotta say, there will be more. It was awesome.

A tone of people from Zachry (Benny's company) were there but all the foreman's from his office were drunk before they even got there so it made for a real funny time. Afterwards we went to the bar with my brother and then stayed at his house.

This was on the way. It's a sonic bag hanging out the car. Too funny!

This is Benny's kinda sorta boss. He was TORE up!

They were having the Indy races on Saturday so we got to go into the Indy garage. This was my favorite car.

Headin over to see the trucks.

Benny's company's truck.

A cute fireman I was chatting it up with. He usually worked NASCAR and this was his first truck race.

Only took this pic because I know Carrin loves Target.

I have know idea who this is but I had to take this pic because this just cracked me up!

Finally sitting down for the races. Benny had a tongue thing going on all day.

My sis in law but she is really more of just a sis. They have been together since I was 2 years old.

My oldest brother.

It was actually REALLY hard to get a good pic of them racing. They were haulin ass!

Out at the bar. My brother is a goof ball.

That's my brothers hand again.

Tongue thing again.

We were all pretty drunk by this point!

As we were about to head out.

After the bar, we went to Mc Donalds. Somehow I got the guy at the window to sing me happy birthday (not my birthday) and he accidentally left his mike on so the car behind us heard it all. Then, the guy in that car sang to me too. It was soooo funny!

It was a great night and I can't wait until we can do it again!

Let's see if I can get this out right

Yesterday in my post I talked about a comment I got. I was pretty sure (not 100% because I don't know her well enough) she was kidding, which I said. I didn't mean for it to come off that I was pissed about it because I wasn't. It just got me thinking that I might be coming off as arrogant or that I thought I was better than others because I have posted a lot lately about the 'extras' we have gotten in a time when a lot of the country can't even stay afloat. I really don't like people that think they are better than others because of the amount of money they have or the material things they have and did not want to look like that to anyone. Those of you that have read my blog for a while know I am not like that but I gotta few new folks and didn't want to seem that way. I guess I just worded it all wrong. Sorry Jane.

I will say that I love reading my comments and other people's blogs because it help me really think about the person I am. Whether I need to better myself, play with my kids more, be more grateful for the blessings we do have (health, each other, and security).... I guess it kinda forces me to look in the mirror every so often and decide if I really like the person I am. And that was one of the comments that made me do that.

I really hope that all made some kind of sense.

Oh ya, found out yesterday that if you go down into the pits at the races that there is a dress code. Must wear pants, a shirt with sleeves, and no open toed shoes for safety reasons (which totally makes sense). So while I will still be all rednecked out, it will be just the normal redneck me. Jeans and boots. ;) And let me say this real quick, there is a HUGE difference between redneck and white trash. I am totally redneck but no where near white trash!

And just for the hell of it, here are some cute as shit pictures of Toot and Smiley.

A little of this and that

Just some randomness.


Little Man left yesterday to spend 28 days with his dad and I was all upset. It's weird how right when you get upset sometimes, you can read or hear something that someone else is going through and all the sudden, your problems seem so small. After he left, I got online and read the update on Avery. Please, that little baby and the family needs all the prayers they can get.


Last night we went and rode around for a while on backroads. This really gives Benny and me a chance to talk. Really talk. Well, he was worried about some things and it was obvious to Toot. She got out of her seat, crawled upfront, gave him a huge hug and kiss and then got back in her seat. Never said a word but it took all his worries away. Kids are so awesome like that.


Finally joining the rest of the world today and getting sat TV. Benny is really not liking the idea of paying for TV but I am not going to live without TV and we don't have HD TV's. I totally won that battle.


The other day on the post about us going to the lake, I had a comment that said "Makes ya wonder what all the little people are doing while you are on the water". Ummm, no, not really. Benny works his ass off for everything we have. We deserve it. After working almost 3 months of 7 days a week/14 hours a day, he can buy whatever the hell he wants. We don't expect handouts from anyone. We believe that if you want something, you work for it and work he does. I am sure she was kidding (I hope) but just wanted to make it clear that I was not bragging. I am just very proud of everything we have worked for. Trust me, it's been a long road to get where we are today.

That damn horse is still pregnant! She really looks like she will pop any minute. And, she has turned into quite the bitch lately. I was giving them water the other night and she kicked the donkey through/over the fence and he almost landed on me! LITERALLY! Scared the shit out of me. He was OK thank goodness but I think I had a minor heart attack. I wish she would hurry up so she will go back to normal!

And last, if you want to see the New Moon trailer, the link to it is under this post.

Hope everyone has a great Wednesday.

New Moon Trailer

If you want to see, it is here. Toot has already watched it about 10 times.

Happens Every Time

Every time I do a tag or a meme thing because I just have nothing else to say, something comes up.

Just found out that I will be going here Friday.

Yup, I will be all rednecked out in my Hooters wife beater, shorts, and flip flops with a beer in one hand and a smoke in the other.

Never been to the Texas Motor Speedway so I am pretty excited about it. It is trucks racing on Friday night. The company Benny works for has a truck racing and gave all the foreman's tickets. Really good tickets too. Even pit passes. Also, I am pretty sure I am the only chick going (in our crew) so this could get interesting. Kinda prefer it that way anyway.

WOOHOO! Can't wait!

What the heck

Carrin did this thing the yesterday and I figured, What the heck. Nothing else has really been going on. What you do is go to google images, type in your answers and then grab the first pic. Easy enough.

First name. I don't know what year they are talking about but it couldn't have been this one.

Middle name. This was just weird because I am so much more for East Side. LOL

Your age. It's 28 not 2007.

Where you want to visit. I will go to Ireland one day!

Where you grew up. Ft Worth TX.

Where you live now. Linden TX.

Favorite Food. Mexican all the way!

Favorite Sweet treat. I love me some Reese's Pieces. Makes me want to phone home. (Please tell me you got that! Benny wouldn't, he has never seen the movie)

Favorite animal. Dog, but this one scares the shit out of me!

Favorite color. I say red but Toot says my favorite color is pink so I did both.

Married or Single. Married.

Describe your relationship in one word. I typed in perfect relationship because it is for us!

Love it

Toot has been singing all weekend. Every minute that we were in the car, she was singing. Seeins how her daddy is a singer, we let her sing her heart out. Makes him very proud.
Anyway, kids always get words wrong to songs. Sometimes it makes no sense and other times it is so cute and funny. She messed up a couple of words and we laughed so hard every time.

She sang Jesus Loves Me. Here is her version.

"Jesus loves me inside out, for the bible tells me so! YES JESUS LOVES ME!"

Too cute.

Short post today because it hurts too much to move. Skiing and tubing all weekend really got me sore!