Im back and different

I'm back and got a few questions to ask. I did something that pretty much goes against society's norm here. I have done it before and loved it and did it again. Benny was on board with it and even did it for me. He likes it, I like it, folks hate it just as much as they did the first time.
I went and shaved my head. I kinda look at hair as in it's just hair, it will grow back. No big deal, right? But, I have had two comments made to me that bothered me.

First one was from my dad. He said that I was not a very good role model to my kids. That one pissed me off and hurt because he would not have said that the day before. Did I really change that much because of a hair cut? I don't think so.

The second comment was from my mom. She said because of my hair, Benny doesn't have to worry about any guys hitting on me now. Did she just tell me I was ugly? Not attractive? Not sexy?

Here is my question to yall. What makes a woman sexy/attractive? Is it really inner beauty that counts or is it what is on the outside?

I need a break...

Things are crazy around here. We are still sick but getting better. Benny drove through flood waters last week and we found out yesterday that the insurance company totalled out his truck. Plus, there is a lot of other stuff going on. Then we have the holidays coming up. I am just overwhelmed and I need a break.
So, I have decided that something in my life has to give and I chose for it to be this. I have just been spread too thin lately and that is not fair to me and especially my family. It only makes sense for me to take a break from blogging because I wasn't enjoying writing anymore. I felt like I needed to instead of wanted to. I'm not leaving for good, just taking a break until I feel like I have the time and the want to to do it again.
Feel free to e-mail anytime. I will still be checking it just not as much as I use to.

Update

Well, It seems Little Man just had a bad cold but then he also got an ear infection. Went to the doc today and got all his meds. Hopefully he will feel better soon but it doesn't look like he will not make it to school at all this week. When a diabetic gets an infection (or has high blood sugar levels very long) his body makes this stuff called ketones. Then that makes him build up acid in his body. VERY bad thing. It could actually put him in a coma if not watched closely and treated. This morning he had moderate amounts of ketones and now we have it down to small amounts. The goal is to get it down to negative. So now I have to make sure his sugar levels stay down and he has to drink 24 oz of water every hour.

To top it all off, Toot and Smiley are now sick too. Seems they caught Little Mans cold. Toot woke up at 5am with 101.1 fever. Smileys was only 99.5. I feel so bad for my babies. I hate it when they are sick.

So now I feel like a nurse with all the meds and scheduling of meds going on. Here is how it goes. Little Man gets ear drops every 4 hours, checks his ketones and blood sugar every 2 hours, antibiotics every 12 hours, water every hour and Tylenol every 6 hours.
Toot gets her meds every 6 hours and Smiley gets his every 4 hours.
And of course none of those fall at the same time.

Hope everyone is having a better week than me and my family. I probably wont be around much because it seems that I have my hands full. Time for Toots meds right now!

DAMMIT!

As much as we try, we can't always protect our kiddos. That is a lesson we have all learned. When anyone is sick in this house, I do my hardest to keep Little Man from getting sick. I have had to go a week before without him to try and protect him.

BUT, I can't always protect him from the world. Apparently the flu is going around his school pretty bad. My ex mother in law called me yesterday to tell me that and to tell Little Man to wash his hands a lot. Too late.

He started coughing yesterday but I didn't think much about it. Then last night, he started feeling bad. This morning, he is SICK! Fever, dry cough, aches, headache, and very tired. Sounds like the flu to me dammit. I pray he doesn't start throwing up because if he does, most likely he will end up in the hospital. When you are a diabetic, illness's that others can handle aren't handled so well.

If ya are the praying type, could ya say a little prayer for my Little Man? I hope we can get through this without a trip to the hospital.

Who will he be today?

I was watching a comedian last night and he was talking about what it is like to be married. He said once you are married, you never know who your wife is gonna be when you wake up. She may be happy, sad, bitchy.... You get the point. It got me thinking about Little Man.

I always know what kid is going to wake up. It's always the same. Slow, grumpy and tired. He is not a morning person. I'm pretty sure he got that from me. It is when I pick him up from school that I never know what kid I will get. This has been going on for a few months and it's getting old. I'm sure it will be like this for years to come and probably get worse seeins how he is only 11.

Some days I pick him up and he is just flat out pissy. Pissy with me, pissy with the little ones and pissy with the rest of the world. This kid is hard to deal with. He argues with me over everything and is a smart ass. I don't do well with this kid. When he is like this, he usually just goes to him room when we get home which is usually best.

Other days, he jumps in the car just as happy as can be. This kid is talkative, sweet, tells me he loves me over and over and plays with the little ones. He passes out hugs and kisses and actually interacts with us all. He hardly goes in his room and is agreeable to everything. This is my favorite kid. I wish he would stick around all the time.

Then we have days like yesterday. These days are weird. He got in the car all happy like he has the last few days. Toot and him were joking around and he called her crazy. Then he said he wasn't crazy, just weird. Toot said, "That's a good one. You are so funny Bubba. HAHAHAHAHA!". Then, a switch flipped and he said, "BE QUIET TOOT! I HAVE A HEADACHE!" WTH?! Where did that come from. I told him to quit being pissy and that if his head hurt so bad then he needed to lay down when we got home. This made him even more pissy. And with that, he went to him room and hid out.

An hour later, he comes out of his room and starts tickling Toot. She looked confused but went with it. She jumps at any chance to play with him. He was in a great mood the rest of the night.

I don't know if it's hormones or what but we just try and deal with it and I try and keep him in line as much as possible. I don't care what his hormones are doing, he is not going to be disrespectful to anyone. I'm kinda scared as to what it will be like when he is actually a teenager. It's like he doesn't know if he should be a little boy or a teen and feels pulled in both directions. And I thought girls were suppose to be the moody ones? Ha!

On a side note, I guess the school handled the bully situation because it has stopped completely. I'm glad he didn't have to actually fight anyone to get it to stop.

Dear Me

Dear my 10 year old self,
Hey, right now life is good but it wont always be. You will go through some hard times but I have some advice to help you through it.

First of all, quit blaming Dad for PA moving out. PA wanted to and it would have happened anyway. Also, you know that deep dark secret you hold inside, go to mom right now and tell her. She will believe you no matter how it seems.

Now on to the next 18 years. When you are in Jr High and want to seem grown up, realize that you are not and what you want to do is soooo not worth it. Trust me, the right time will come soon enough.

When you are in high school, you will get the guy you want but it will cause lots a problems. Don't fret the small stuff and just enjoy the time yall have together. He is a real blast but always stay true to yourself. No matter how much you try to be the girl he wants, he will still walk away. Don't worry though, you get him back when you are 18 and quit trying to be the girl he wants.

Then there is going to be a time when Mom and Dad do something that you don't understand and don't like but it really is the best thing ever. It works out great so just go with it. You and Mom end up being best friends and she really is just trying to do what is best.

Just always remember to follow your gut. It hardly ever steers you wrong when you really listen to it. Your life turns out to be what you truly wanted and you will love it.

Your 28 year old self,
Me

P.S. Don't get that perm you want so badly. Your hair wont curl and it turns out bad. Very very bad!


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Just a reminder

No one in real life knows about my blog except my mom and Benny and I would LOVE to keep it that way so if we are friends on Facebook, PLEASE don't mention it. If they knew about it I would have to censor it and I really don't want to have to do that. I like being able to bitch about who I want, when I want. It's nice to be able to get shit off my chest without hurting anyone. Thanks.

Today has sucked! It has rain ALL day long without stopping. We have pretty much just laid in the dark watching movies all day. I sure hope the sun makes an appearance soon. They even let Benny get off work early because of all the flooding.

If Toot rides a sheep this weekend, I will deffinately take pics to show yall. Benny has to work so he will miss it so I have been told to take video and pics. I can't wait and just hope it doesn't get rained out again!

Off to cook supper. Hope everyone had a great Tuesday!

And it just keeps coming

It is raining. Still. We have had soooo much rain this year. Oh ya, and it was confirmed that we did get tornados the other day.

I am really getting tired of the rain and it needs to stop before winter gets here. We never get snow. Well, hardly ever that is. It has only snowed ONE day since Toot has even been alive. What we usually get is ice. We haven't had a bad ice storm in about 7 or 8 years. On the last one, people didn't have electricity anywhere from 2 weeks to a month. Yes, you read that right! One whole month without electricity!!!!

If it continues to rain like this, I am sure we will have another bad one this year. I am not looking forward to that!

Because of the storms and tornados and rain, the rodeo we went to got rained out and rescheduled for next sat. That's ok though because I really wanted Toot to compete in the mutton bustin (ride a sheep as long as possible). I know she would love it. So now, I have 6 days to convince her. I know if she sees other kids doing it, she will. She never backs down from a challange.

Have you ever,,,,

Got in a fight with your brothers because they are shitty? I have! Did tonight.

They are assholes and Mom, you shouldn't go! But that is just my opinion! You know how I feel about it.

I love you and am ALWAYS here for ya!

This sucks!

We had a bad storm go threw a minute ago and now we have no electricity. Really bad straight line wind which is never good with all the trees we have. I went out for a second and only saw small limbs everywhere. So, I called my folks to check on them.

They have shit down everywhere. They have these tent carport things because they have so many cars (6) and she said one of them blew away. They have a corvette they are rebuilding and a 50 pound sack of deer corn was on the hood of it and the hood blew off of it and landed one of their trucks. A pine tree fell on their boat. And then a bunch of limbs down everywhere including on their power line. Ya, they don't have electricity either.

Thank goodness I have a laptop with a battery or it would be very boring and dark in here but no coffee dammit! Last time we had a storm like this (last year), it took 18 hours to get our electricity back. Hope it doesn't take that long this time!