I don't know if you could tell lately by my post but I have been in a funk for a while. I don't post as often as I use to and when I did they were not as 'feel good' or upbeat as usual. It got to the point that my mom called and asked if I was OK because I use to post every day. Well, here is the deal.
I have dealt with depression all my life. Well, not all my life but most of it. I have used drugs and alcohol to hide it in the past but that doesn't work real good. I was/am really good at putting on a 'mask' to hide it from others. If you didn't know the real me than you would never know anything was going on.
So, I felt it was going to far the other day and made an appointment. Went and talked to my doc and he agreed it was time for me to get back on my meds. Lexapro. I have been on it before and it worked really good. It doesn't make me a different person, just gets me back to the real me. I started taking them Friday and can already feel the difference.
People shouldn't be scared to say they have a problem and I know that. For some reason, I let it go farther than I should of but I did do something to take care of it, finally. It's easy to be 'who you want' on your blog but I am always me. Whether if its the happy go lucky chick or the chick that is battling depression. I am always still the same chick, you either love me or hate me.
Passing The Baton
2 years ago
10 comments:
We definitely love you April! Depression is a much more widespread issue than most people think it is and very much for the reason you said here...it's hard to tell because it usually doesn't affect the person on the outside, meaning the person we portray to others. I had a tough battle with it myself and still struggle from time to time. I was on Welbutrin for quite a while and it helped a lot too. I'll be praying that you are 100% "feeling great' April again soon!
God bless!
I have also battled depression- haven't been down that road in awhile and pray to GOD I never travel there again! I wrote a post about my experience awhile back and was shocked at the response (and private emails) I received about others who are battling. It is much more common than I realized because most people won't talk about it.
Glad to hear you are on your road to recovery. God bless you.
Well, I love you! No one should be ashamed about depression! It's more widely acceptable now than it used to be. And if you need to take some thing to help you get back to you, then I say go for it. Life is way to short to go through it not feeling right about yourself.
All I want to know, the really important thing, is can you still drink on those meds? Because I think drinking will definitely be a must in a 8 days!
Girl you know I got the same meds earlier this year. I haven't started the lexapro b/c I've felt better taking just Yaz, but I still have the Rx just in case.
Sometimes you need help to deal with everything, & people should not be too proud or ashamed to ask for it. It's awesome that you shared your story so others know it happens to the best of us.
You are right... people shouldn't feel guilty about taking medication...especially when it will help!!! Geez, that is what it's there for!!
Sooooo glad you are starting to feel better!! :)
I hear you girl I have been in that same kind of mood lately. To the point where I told Hubbs that if something didn't give pretty soon I wouldn't be responsible for what happens.
I haven't had the need for meds yet but know that if it ever went that way I would certainly do them to get back on track.
You do what you have to do to take care of yourself cuz we love who you are and want you around for a long time.
I love you damn it! Glad you are starting to feel better. It is definitely ok to admit that you need help sometimes...no matter what is ailing you
Hope you continue your path of dealing with depression in a constructive way and don't ever depend on the drugs/alcohol that don't do anything but make everything 10X worse. I've never gone through it myself, but I've lost half of my family due to their depression/drug/alcohol addictions. That was the family tragedy that just occured, my aunt which was my dad's sister died the other day of a drug overdose. She was his third sibling that this has happened to. And I didn't grow up with my parents due to their addictions, but have spent my life worrying about them. So no matter what life throws your way, I wish you the strength to deal with it in a healthy way.
As you can see, we like you for who you are- keeping it real. Glad you are feeling better, though.
No one should be scared to get help....sooooo very true!
Hope you are doing better, my friend. XOXO!
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